p1a2r3t

will fill in soon...

D-Efeitos I.:

dance group from Brazil

: kiss the sky X

Shawn Lee's Ping Pong Orchestra - Kiss the Sky

in class

you know when a Professor busts out the Alex Trebek questions out to the class, trying hard to get some sort of class participation

Professor, "...this agranulated leukocyte mainly functions in acquired immunity"

only to hear the people next to you whisper "weeeeesshhhhhooowishhhyte" just loud enough to tickle your eardrum.

i always found it kinda funny.  why does everyone just whisper the answer? is to make a little noise for the Professor to hear and move on? are they trying to tell me the answer?  or do they need to hear themselves say it for their own veracity like the thoughts aren't worthy enough? its not like you dont know the answer.

maybe its just the proper protocol.
i mean we are 17 rows from the podium, lets not bust the poor guys hearing aide.

next time im just going to weeeshuwishhhhuuuuuuu to my left and right.  what can i say im a loyal conformist.

ps. the real answer: what is a lymphocyte?

finally moving

i had another ghost press

i was dreaming that i was asleep

in my room and on my bed

only to be awakened by a levitating force

lifting me

instead of proving its weight on my chest

forcing me from the warm surface of my mattress

breaking the permeable temperature membrane

as i enter chilled stream of the Boston winds

i foolishly allowed through the window

i am passively stiff within these elements

floating uncontrollably

but from my out of body view

the birds eye locks on the tips of my feet

piercing the downed comforter 

latching to the forgranted warmth

that now fights to keep me grounded

...i acknowledge and let go...

seeking the journey

 down to travel the serpentine

sprint the straightaway

and feel human

ready and set

i let go

only to fall back down to my bed

with eyes wide open

i release a few gasps of unidentified words

wait till the paralysis melts away

so i can fall as leep again

[maybe it was just the fermenting rice i accidentally ate]

drawing by: Jeff Tang (12fv.com)

poor fillings by: om.abu

r e c < v ^ > i n g

r e c < v ^ > i n g

forever difficult
guilt and emptiness conquered by wonders
mind body and temptation struggling for equilibrium
pain smoothly waves away with the warm water jet streams
aided by toasts, cheers, and a new beginning
music feeds emotion
while the best instruments are the foot movements across the wooden floors
a surplus of laughs
and even some struggle
but always a helping hand to guide through that journey
and followers to make sure the angel is even ok
new to old the ageless entity unveils in all
this medicine cured my Fall
the emptiness
the holes
gently is filled with new colors
new wonders
even though it is so obvious
the weight of the clocks
on our wrists walls and pockets
we push
battling against those 12 numbered faces
for better and not worse
for the worst of me is behind
the worst of you is as well
and until these roots twist again
our trunk thickens
our branches stretch
and our leaves capture the bright light of tomorrow
stronger than ever before

===chalkin' life---

New Boy

.=.II.=.I-U-I.=.II.=.

tap tap

just so it happens

it happens so just

so it just happens

simply amazing.

pages of your book
ripped away the leafs of fall
for a master peace



(from description)
Recently, in a televised modern dance competition in
China - a very unique couple won one of the top prizes and received
the longest standing ovation. She was a dancer, who had trained since she was a
child. Tragically, she lost her entire left arm in an accident and fell
into a state of depression; so she decided to coach a children's
dancing group. From that point on, she realized she
could not forget dancing. She still loved to dance and wanted to
dance again. She tried to do some of her former routines but
without her arm she had difficulty maintaining balance. She
practiced strenuously and developed a dance routine - always dancing alone in
her studio. He was not a dancer. He lost a leg in an accident and
he had fallen into a deep state of depression. They met - and her
goal mmediately became to help him become positive about
life again.
She taught him to dance and in her studio they danced
together and developed a routine as their lives and friendship
became closer. Their life together, behind the closed doors of the
dance studio - wasone creativity, challenge, determination, practice,
and sometimes failure. Their focus was on doing what others said
would be impossible. Several times it became so difficult and
frustrating for them that they gave up, broke up.
But life alone, without each other, brought them back together again and they became even more determined to perfect a dance routine to a point where they might try to dance outside the
studio to see what friends and family thought about what they were doing all that time inside the studio.
Their friends and family were so supportive they encouraged the couple to enter a dance competition, which they finally agreed to do. Only later did they realize the competition was to
be televised locally. We will now see the first - and to date only
televised performance of their dance.......

word

nothing makes the earth seem so spacious as to have friends at a distance; they make the latitudes and longitudes
~Henry David Thoreau

.~. Fashawn .~.

California Hip Hop
new album is pretty righteous "Boy Meets World"

For more info: www.myspace.com/fashawn

I]till i pass[I

if this is what it takes for me to find myself
then
Bring the Pain and the Drama and the Hazard to my Mental Health

i dont know what to put...

so playing it safe with a song



new album 9Power9 came out and is solid!
not like Oi Oi Oi, but nonetheless still Boys Noize
http://prettymuchamazing.com/music/boys-noize-power-album-review

-=changes=+

\reaching the blue
\\so i fly
\\\birds.I.view
\\\\my third.eye cues
\\\\\on who.knew clues
\\\\glued on the unknown
\\\of the beauty:
\\.full grown
\.full new

.om/4bu.

..\/peace piece\/..

we approach to your kin...
.om/4bu.
12FV.com

(already posted, but well worth the resurfacing)

:Penguin Prison:

face all those forces
its time to speak your summer
against all robot

<.:.sShHaIpFeT.:.>

you caught me again
the intricate web unseen
smooth cuts kept in stone

*imagine*

.[Ramadan Kareem]. {pt. 2}

PICS AT:
http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2009/08/ramadan_2009.html
captions by: ALAN TAYLOR

my faves:


humility
patience
sacrifice

....close your eyes and you'll see what im saying...

Brother Ali - Us
Album drops September 22nd

.[Ramadan Kareem].

sneaking up on me i had no choice
but to jump right in
i anxiously await that feeling from a year ago
it didnt hit me until it hit me
a rapid punch to the gut
emptiness is finally inside
weakness in my hands
tick-tocking adjustments to get acclimated
the staggering first steps to move on a path
feelings i thankfully wait a year to experience
and i think to myself
~this is nothing compared to~
and i carry on, focused more than before
eventually even the score against time

Ramadan has begun and i am going to be starting my 3rd day of fasting
much more than simply depriving myself of food and water for 14 hours
i am making this month a time really home in on myself
as well get a glimpse, just a small minuscule taste,
of the horrific lives some individuals are battling through elsewhere

a cleansing of the mind&body&heart

some things i am giving up for this month:
Sodas
Cursing
Junk Foods
Drinking
Smoking

some things i am consciously working on during this month:
Patience
Empathy
Forgiveness
Honesty
Responsibility
Selflessness
Love

my focus is on this.


i may not be a believer in religion
but Ramadan is something i will keep sacred and use every year
to feel for others
and keep true to myself
i am happy to say it is just the beginning




-a spiritual atheist-

...Rhian Sheehan...

you can check him out in Malaga, Spain
Thursday 25, October 2007

.:.∞.:.

dropped from Neena Dolwani
http://www.facebook.com/nrdkeepsitreal?ref=nf#/note.php?note_id=135811708661&id=6000895&ref=mf

::::flinch::;:

see




smell



taste






stuck.
i rest stiffly
water swishing
shaping and shifting
chizling and lifting my head above ground

forget understand
you can not comprehend
i maybe just a head
behind many but still ahead
waiting for my body to finally move me
push me
where my mind has endlessly gone
to these thoughts that effortlessly flown
while these roots endured when grown

it pains me to think of the time left
but i am happy to be a head
behind many but nevertheless ahead
and until that gentle water completes its creation
besting the rest of me, i will rest stiffly
listening to the wind whistling
until i can walk to my own rock tune

4.oH

..3170..

as i sit at my bed, packed and ready to go to the motherland i can do nothing but reflect and reminisce about this truly amazing year

in the beginning it was a struggle trying to not just convince my parents about why i should live as a graduate in the OC but also ensuring myself that i am truly making the right decision graduating is tough, absolutely but everyone goes through it and entering the real world is eye opening to say the least its important to save money now, times are tough ...

with all the factors grinding through my thoughts i realized that i just couldnt
i could not go through this year, and all that comes with it, at home
i had to be selfish and not just as reward for 4 years of work
but i knew personally that with the goals i have in life i could not do this year on my own
it was not about being away from home but about being around those that most influenced and shaped my life
surrounding myself with that amazing support system
as much as my family loves and cares for me, i knew i needed to be around the friends and mentors that made Me-->me :o)

post graduation was a real delicate situation
for me it was the daily grind of work and saving up money
****(luckily i got to do that with freaking amazing kids!)
the emotional heartache of a long distance relationship
the battle of trying to meet the ridiculous standards of admission staffs forcing you to question your own motivation and career path
i was lucky to live with and be around...Doctors
seriously...i dont know how many times i would have the blues and then boom the Doctors come in and i would start to feel happy again
i would be down or stressed, and just by being around each other all those symptoms would go away
the commotion of real life would ease
my mind, that would travel 1000rpm would finally be able to be grounded
time would pass by in a much more beautiful way.

And 3 major things stick with me when i think of this year in Manistee

1. some of the best talks with the most amazing people in the WORLD! (whether it was art, religion, science, brochat, mantalk, sports, it was all good). the expression, empathy, and REALNESS made talking and listening hella fun! who knew??
   
2. Music! seriously another language that is universal and POWERFUL! some of my most memorable nights were pouring my heart through that Korg and Akai for hours and hours (huge thanks to Mr. Beans!). And whats even more mighty is when you share that expression with others and collaborate to create what no other group of individuals can make, your own music. its just a crazy chemical synthesis, AND THERE IS A LOT MORE TO COME...TRRUUUUUUSSSST!!!!
3. lastly i just love seeing that upward climb that everyone is doing right now in their lives. we may have things established, we may be working for our dreams, or still trying to figure out exactly how we are going to impact this world, but most importantly we are never settled with what we have now because a wise man by the name Oliver Wendell Holmes once said "the great thing in this world is not so much where we stand as in what direction we are moving"
   

there is way too much i could possibly write about this year, but for now let me just say thank you from the bottom of my heart! thank you 3170 and everyone that came in and out of that door my life would not be the same without this house and you people i cant even begin to explain how much each of you as individuals mean to me, and as a whole when together it is just out of this world

i am off to Jordan
then Taipei to meet Berty and HJ
then Korea
make my way back to California August 11th
then the big move...

till then be safe and don't be afraid to get selfish on your sweet ass :o)
Peace!

:Youssou N'dour:::I Bring What I Love:

"People need to see that,
far from being an obstacle,
the world’s diversity
of languages, religions and
traditions is a great treasure,
affording us precious
opportunities to recognize
ourselves in others."

– Youssou N’Dour

Im...

.:still sanderling wishing:.
..::still *hj* missing::..

Duke...

one of the worst to ride shotgun.

play a bit

forty-two

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its beautiful
its feared
its life

RnD

until we can.live with our.shell

we can't.live without.it




image by magda.indigo

www.flickr.com/photos/9550033@N04

.:IHUGEI:.

www.hbo.com/events/alzheimers

Choice.

simply heard in his voice
actions by Choice

just moving...

Selam

:i like to say all colors shine in their own shade:
and today i experienced one beautiful color

from the soothing voice of an elder
i heard eloquence beyond measure
reciting the cherished words of hundreds of years
the fresh sounds flowed more than any poetry i know
intertwining itself with an ancient language that has always been there
it was refreshing and powerful to say the least
as the resting body was lowered inch by inch into the earth
the words soothed away the sorrow that He is no longer with us
but now on to His final home
tears raining down speaking louder than any actions of words
tears roaring nothing but truth

a foundation was reunited once again
although the circumstance unfortunate, in a way
i forgot how much i love these people, my people
my roots my upbringing
the very core to myself and who i am today
although i have grown and am not ashamed of who i am whats important is that
they still are still there
going on strengthening one another
producing beauty and peace in each other and this world

to end the night i heard the powerful words of a Shiekh from Irvine
words that will resonate through my lifetime indeed
the poetry of the Quran was flowing unnaturally
and all i could do was think of the beauty of the language used
immeasurable by human standards
but more importantly than the expression was the lesson learned
simply moving and reassuring once again all those around
relieving sorrows for all those around
and as i left it was truly a happy night
i am grateful to have experienced this day

as unique and magnificent of a day this truly was
it hurts me to think my place in this world is still reaffirmed
i wish i am wrong i wish i am wrong i wish i am wrong i wish i am wrong
not for my sake
but for those that sacrifice so much of their lives to their faith
from the who to, what to, where, when, and how to...
to the w/w/w/w/h-not to...
i just wish i am wrong

i like to say that all colors shine in their own shade...

i think im somewhere wrhite in the middle

rest in peace Amo Atassi

messing around

and just sometimes

:the greatest lesson learned is:
.nothing was worth learning.

.2nd:II:Last.

{vocals} jeff tang 12FV.com

{instrumental} omar abuzaineh

mirrorssrorrim

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.:4:.

as individuals we have a limit
no matter how much knowledge we have accumulated at our desks
we have a limit
even with all the respect earned on those fields
there is only so much
of course the support system is so powerful
but for the first 2 decades i was satisfied with my limit
thinking the best that i can be is indeed sufficient


until i found what was missing
how and when?
summer 06 and friend of a friend
where the beginning came
and who is this, i was thinking to myself?


it is important not to settle for our finite growth as an individual
find that person who will make you aware of new parts of life you never knew existed
exploring new love within us
thus catalyzing the release as well
the power of that .4.

mine is on ua one one six five

comfortably numb.

son&moon

need.i.say.+.

travels.

geometry.

straight.lines
can.c
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........v
.....e

.!?

^ check mate






east
__l
__o
___p
____e

^loss of.sight
loss of.control
just makes.noise

time.slips
its.easy
to.see

colors.

they all shine in their own shade

salaam.

:life is as complicated as we want to make it. or even as simple. the definition of life is open to interpretation by each individual, whether they view it as a page, chapter, short novel, poem, epic trilogy, or a small part of a much longer series. and what shapes our view of life is our beliefs.

:the main point is that we need to find our belief that will be the catalyst to making us better individuals. a faith is necessary though. it is not till we fill that void until we really start living the lives we are capable of. but we must be selfish with our lives, and selfless with our love, making sure that in this life we leave all that we have; unconsciously helping others do the same.

:it is important not just to live with an open mind
:but to shine light from our hearts with action

daydreams.

i am glad to have you back.once again_you used to get me in.trouble.as an adolescent_taking first class journeys to.wherever you desired_with friends.family the.future and.history_but it was too.real_you believed in it.too much_letting go of the.real world just to.escape_and could not.let it go_you had to.let it go_surviving years now.without it_learning about the.tangibles in.life_causing me to lose a piece of.myself

as time has.elapsed, i have a new view.vision.voice

i take those.first class journeys once again_getting caught with my.head in.the clouds once again

.:..::...:::daydreams:::...::..:.

(no subject)

:.:the pen came easily:.:
.:.the paper unlimited.:.
:.:the thoughts though:.:
.cant be put into words.
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